The last day of 2011... N now I only realized that I have forgotten to share quite alot of thing of this last month of 2011... But anyway, it's passed n I know what have I gain that's more important! I won't do stupid thing like other always do by stated everything for the year! I only will recalled some that might influence n bring joy to me...

At this last day of 2011, I lying on my bed.. Watching movie(n for sure the movie is end). Lying here n chit chat with my dear. He makes me hv alot of pictures of passed n future. That might been good or bad. But at least v r holding tight side by side to faced n accept every challenging that might come.

For the bad part in this year... No one can imaging n only my dearest babe... My character is I only will treat ppl based on how they treat me... I know sometimes it's doesn't look good n for god sake I should change. But that's me!!! For the moment u know me, u should know! N I'm sure some know that! If today u help me alot n treat me as a human that what I will paid u back with how u treat me! I remember every single thing that I gone thru. Almost 1 n half year I been working in Singapore... There is diff feeling... Here even feel strange but I can feel the warm from relative n some true fren. I cut of some relationship that I try to build before... But I guess is good coz at least I realize now!!! Some might say I dun understand n know myself well but I will only write as what I think who I am. We should admin everything happened have reason! Sometimes when things happen I will recalled y I can be so close with others until now but not u!!?? 1st time in my life for past 2 years that I categories she as my BFF. every single thing I share with her... N in the day, I called her up n v cry like mad human(that us story behind that only she n me know in the heart). Now I think back y I will called her up! I can't deny that yes...I care her as a fren a BFF!!! But what I sad on that time also is she like to categories me as DIBA... Think back the moment... Y so coz I care... Y blog occur coz v would not hv the guts talk it face by face! But this years things happened again but this time not coz of me n her... I'm the person that if u dun make fool of me I won't heck care u! When she came to Sg for holiday... I sense the unhappiness on her only I start to hv a chit chat with her. But in the middle I still care about other feeling. Try to control situation to not make it's getting to worst at 1st. I tot of forever I won't say it out n today last day of 2011 I will make a full stop of this. Nobody know y I n dear meet them late?!! I told them v will b late but act v met up very early n both of us go for a shop to get some present to them n also I can feel that they wan to hv a walk by themselves so v decided let them go to a place that they wan by themselves only v met up them! Not to deny once I'm so excited when knowing that she make a booking of flight ticket to Sg. As I also newbie at here but I still try hard to plan n try to bring them to places that will bring memory to us. But... U know la.. No point to state here again. In this friendship that I build before, I played a roll like a mother.. No matter in what...coz I'm older than them. I'm know I'm not prefect but yet nobody is perfect! After I grad act I can just make dunno when I start to feel the distance but u still will try to help. I not saying that others didn't put effort... Especially u! I know u quite independent. So nth to worry about u even in ur relationship. Again this year I try to pull back coz I dun wan coz of others v become stranger! But after a while I start to realize wan u to choose 1 of us I rather give up. I might say some rude thing at that time but I believe she know me! From beginning I won't talk about a fren bad thing to another fren until the moment when I know that somebody had said about me! N infront of me act innocent! After that, sorry to say! Y I'm still need to heck care that idiot feeling while she not! Until now for god sake act I not even blame on S even once or have heart feeling with her... But I'm sure she have... I believe for all this happened she hurt n so do me! I still remember she write this before that y I boycott her... N u sincerely wanna say I wish that my BFF n her bf/ future husband will be close with me n dear... But the moment I start to block n delete everything is just because 1 day after for few days I'm no time to fb n on Tgt morning in level 1 office I known that she had blocked my bf!! I still remember after I met S n hv a talk with her whole night on good Friday. I start to not mention anything anymore! After I come back Sg I start not to call coz I feel that her emotion starting to get weird. I choose to not make her in diff situation. Maybe what I say her if she saw she won't believe or will think I offen... But I'm not... Just only feel that I have right to write what I wan n feel... No matter how bad Vince r but he still my bf that done alot of responsibilities that he should.That I can't deny. For me, it's not wrong a bf try to protect his gf... What v gone thru only v know!!! As what I had promised n still until now I still hoping to share my happiness with u... I still remember I said that I wait u to come for choosing some important thing for my big day n now I know it's impossible! Anyway, wish her have a blessed year ahead n healthy.

While state all this here, not only I recalled her but also 1 idiot! Told before I only will treat ppl as how they treat me! Human always the same only see what ppl done to her without releasing how they had treated them.. To avoid misunderstanding I state her as D... y? If u know jing gou Yao si ren then u will know y... For me this D only treat me as "water fish"! From beginning! This idiot only will remember u whenever they need u! Still remember after I move back to kt... I will only receive her msg n called whenever she have thing to ask! Both of them r so diff...S will not msg u for only help. Even she need she also won't open her mouth to ask for coz that's her.. But for D! She will n she will fight for it no matter how as long as she get what want! This recalled me back 1 scenario.. If for me I won't keep msg n call a fren that I know I only know them for just a month for help! But u know what the 1st I know this idiot, she keep msg n call me just to hv a copy of my assignment! She won't care whether ur house hv Internet anot n whether u busy anot.. Act I should realize from that moment! I still remember when she call I still driving to go for hi ti with my fren... N my fren said: y u simply agree ppl to give ur assignment to them!? How if they copy paste n submit early than u?! Is ur future n u playful with it? On the moment sincerely I still answered my fren: she say she just wan see as a ref! Now I just feel y that time I so naive! Hey dude! Dun think I didn't make noise at beginning, what u had said n do I also dunno! Before say me just see urself! Friendship is build from heart! Ppl will think u r pity n innocent but they dunno the REAL u! I admit I'm rude n bad! But at least I dare to speak out n not like u use backstabbing me!!! U r the 1st 1 that I dun even wan to pull back friendship! I won't give u a damn! Dun even a fuck! I heard alot bout u from others n now I'm very sure I make a right choice! U r forever deleted! There hv no more space for u!!

Just to mention I always know my English very poor!!! I admit but urs also the same!!! With those Malay English nth to proud of human up there! I really dunno is u jealous me or I jealous u act!!! When I get 1 thing that u dun get u will say a lot of bad thing for the thing I get but after that u go get it for urself! So I should happy or sad?! Or I should say u jealous or I jealous?! Erm.. But no matter what all this will go Tgt with 2011 after few hours.



For the best of this year is I learn alot ! Learn to make decision.. I mean right decision. I found myself... Even I lost something(somethings that is really not important at all) but I gain alot... I gain a REAL fren(not a true fren) coz I need a REAL fren not a TRUE fren. I gain some frens that accept my bad n not look at my good! The amazing thing That I gain this year is they accept me n grow Tgt with me as what I am...

Beside that, 2011 make me grow mature n not older!!! Haha... In this whole year I learned to live Tgt with dear, settle thing Tgt.. Grow Tgt... Plan Tgt.. Put effort Tgt in the thing that v planned. V might not earn much as other but at least v able to fulfill our responsibilities to each other, family n fren... In this 2011, I start to afford my own family... Or should say us/v... Start to give parents "pocket money" n it's increase from last year.. Start to get a land... For our bird nest business.. Start to hv saving Tgt... Start to live as a family... Start to plan for our future...

For this whole year... I not only gain a REAL fren but also memory that v build Tgt... Meet up with babes everyweek... Go for holiday Tgt... N attend babes wedding n coming there r still a lot of red bomb waiting for me... Wish all of them hv a happiness marriage forever. As in bible, we love him because he first love us... He make me know what is love... He make me fall in love once again... I also learned how to accept other ppl bad thing n not by looking for their good...

Those bad thing I let it go Tgt with 2011 n for those good things I bring forward to 2012... Another new year... 2012... Is a hard n tough year for me but it's also a good year with a good beginning for us... My pre wedding photo postpone to 2012(n also a time for me to really hv a diet plan... Hehe...) start to look for a house at kt n kl... The deposit had ready for it n now hardworking to save for future renovation.. But hopefully everything done in 2012 so that, v can hv our big event at our own house... The another plan is dear was planning to get 7 seats car before v back to malaysia... Hope our dreams come true n everything go smoothly.. The bird nest house is done until half n I think when I back to kt this cny it's should be done...

Last but not least, Thanks dear for fulfill everything eventot is tough for us... Thanks for fulfill all my needs... Thanks for putting me at 1st... Thanks for accepting my fren n I know u go well with them.. Thanks for all the changes u make for us... Thanks for caring from the day I step in Sg... Thanks for work out Tgt with me for our future.. Thanks for the way u pamper me... Thanks for ur warm hug every day n night.. Thanks for ur support... Wish v will hv better year in 2012.. Wish our dreams come true... Wish v hv a prospects year ahead in coming year.. Goodbye 2011, welcome 2012... Start everyday with a new hope leave bad memories behind and have faith for a better tomorrow. GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME!


~love~
Catherine


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The last day of 2011... N now I only realized that I have forgotten to share quite alot of thing of this last month of 2011... But anyway, it's passed n I know what have I gain that's more important! I won't do stupid thing like other always do by stated everything for the year! I only will recalled some that might influence n bring joy to me...

At this last day of 2011, I lying on my bed.. Watching movie(n for sure the movie is end). Lying here n chit chat with my dear. He makes me hv alot of pictures of passed n future. That might been good or bad. But at least v r holding tight side by side to faced n accept every challenging that might come.

For the bad part in this year... No one can imaging n only my dearest babe... My character is I only will treat ppl based on how they treat me... I know sometimes it's doesn't look good n for god sake I should change. But that's me!!! For the moment u know me, u should know! N I'm sure some know that! If today u help me alot n treat me as a human that what I will paid u back with how u treat me! I remember every single thing that I gone thru. Almost 1 n half year I been working in Singapore... There is diff feeling... Here even feel strange but I can feel the warm from relative n some true fren. I cut of some relationship that I try to build before... But I guess is good coz at least I realize now!!! Some might say I dun understand n know myself well but I will only write as what I think who I am. We should admin everything happened have reason! Sometimes when things happen I will recalled y I can be so close with others until now but not u!!?? 1st time in my life for past 2 years that I categories she as my BFF. every single thing I share with her... N in the day, I called her up n v cry like mad human(that us story behind that only she n me know in the heart). Now I think back y I will called her up! I can't deny that yes...I care her as a fren a BFF!!! But what I sad on that time also is she like to categories me as DIBA... Think back the moment... Y so coz I care... Y blog occur coz v would not hv the guts talk it face by face! But this years things happened again but this time not coz of me n her... I'm the person that if u dun make fool of me I won't heck care u! When she came to Sg for holiday... I sense the unhappiness on her only I start to hv a chit chat with her. But in the middle I still care about other feeling. Try to control situation to not make it's getting to worst at 1st. I tot of forever I won't say it out n today last day of 2011 I will make a full stop of this. Nobody know y I n dear meet them late?!! I told them v will b late but act v met up very early n both of us go for a shop to get some present to them n also I can feel that they wan to hv a walk by themselves so v decided let them go to a place that they wan by themselves only v met up them! Not to deny once I'm so excited when knowing that she make a booking of flight ticket to Sg. As I also newbie at here but I still try hard to plan n try to bring them to places that will bring memory to us. But... U know la.. No point to state here again. In this friendship that I build before, I played a roll like a mother.. No matter in what...coz I'm older than them. I'm know I'm not prefect but yet nobody is perfect! After I grad act I can just make dunno when I start to feel the distance but u still will try to help. I not saying that others didn't put effort... Especially u! I know u quite independent. So nth to worry about u even in ur relationship. Again this year I try to pull back coz I dun wan coz of others v become stranger! But after a while I start to realize wan u to choose 1 of us I rather give up. I might say some rude thing at that time but I believe she know me! From beginning I won't talk about a fren bad thing to another fren until the moment when I know that somebody had said about me! N infront of me act innocent! After that, sorry to say! Y I'm still need to heck care that idiot feeling while she not! Until now for god sake act I not even blame on S even once or have heart feeling with her... But I'm sure she have... I believe for all this happened she hurt n so do me! I still remember she write this before that y I boycott her... N u sincerely wanna say I wish that my BFF n her bf/ future husband will be close with me n dear... But the moment I start to block n delete everything is just because 1 day after for few days I'm no time to fb n on Tgt morning in level 1 office I known that she had blocked my bf!! I still remember after I met S n hv a talk with her whole night on good Friday. I start to not mention anything anymore! After I come back Sg I start not to call coz I feel that her emotion starting to get weird. I choose to not make her in diff situation. Maybe what I say her if she saw she won't believe or will think I offen... But I'm not... Just only feel that I have right to write what I wan n feel... No matter how bad Vince r but he still my bf that done alot of responsibilities that he should.That I can't deny. For me, it's not wrong a bf try to protect his gf... What v gone thru only v know!!! As what I had promised n still until now I still hoping to share my happiness with u... I still remember I said that I wait u to come for choosing some important thing for my big day n now I know it's impossible! Anyway, wish her have a blessed year ahead n healthy.

While state all this here, not only I recalled her but also 1 idiot! Told before I only will treat ppl as how they treat me! Human always the same only see what ppl done to her without releasing how they had treated them.. To avoid misunderstanding I state her as D... y? If u know jing gou Yao si ren then u will know y... For me this D only treat me as "water fish"! From beginning! This idiot only will remember u whenever they need u! Still remember after I move back to kt... I will only receive her msg n called whenever she have thing to ask! Both of them r so diff...S will not msg u for only help. Even she need she also won't open her mouth to ask for coz that's her.. But for D! She will n she will fight for it no matter how as long as she get what want! This recalled me back 1 scenario.. If for me I won't keep msg n call a fren that I know I only know them for just a month for help! But u know what the 1st I know this idiot, she keep msg n call me just to hv a copy of my assignment! She won't care whether ur house hv Internet anot n whether u busy anot.. Act I should realize from that moment! I still remember when she call I still driving to go for hi ti with my fren... N my fren said: y u simply agree ppl to give ur assignment to them!? How if they copy paste n submit early than u?! Is ur future n u playful with it? On the moment sincerely I still answered my fren: she say she just wan see as a ref! Now I just feel y that time I so naive! Hey dude! Dun think I didn't make noise at beginning, what u had said n do I also dunno! Before say me just see urself! Friendship is build from heart! Ppl will think u r pity n innocent but they dunno the REAL u! I admit I'm rude n bad! But at least I dare to speak out n not like u use backstabbing me!!! U r the 1st 1 that I dun even wan to pull back friendship! I won't give u a damn! Dun even a fuck! I heard alot bout u from others n now I'm very sure I make a right choice! U r forever deleted! There hv no more space for u!!

Just to mention I always know my English very poor!!! I admit but urs also the same!!! With those Malay English nth to proud of human up there! I really dunno is u jealous me or I jealous u act!!! When I get 1 thing that u dun get u will say a lot of bad thing for the thing I get but after that u go get it for urself! So I should happy or sad?! Or I should say u jealous or I jealous?! Erm.. But no matter what all this will go Tgt with 2011 after few hours.



For the best of this year is I learn alot ! Learn to make decision.. I mean right decision. I found myself... Even I lost something(somethings that is really not important at all) but I gain alot... I gain a REAL fren(not a true fren) coz I need a REAL fren not a TRUE fren. I gain some frens that accept my bad n not look at my good! The amazing thing That I gain this year is they accept me n grow Tgt with me as what I am...

Beside that, 2011 make me grow mature n not older!!! Haha... In this whole year I learned to live Tgt with dear, settle thing Tgt.. Grow Tgt... Plan Tgt.. Put effort Tgt in the thing that v planned. V might not earn much as other but at least v able to fulfill our responsibilities to each other, family n fren... In this 2011, I start to afford my own family... Or should say us/v... Start to give parents "pocket money" n it's increase from last year.. Start to get a land... For our bird nest business.. Start to hv saving Tgt... Start to live as a family... Start to plan for our future...

For this whole year... I not only gain a REAL fren but also memory that v build Tgt... Meet up with babes everyweek... Go for holiday Tgt... N attend babes wedding n coming there r still a lot of red bomb waiting for me... Wish all of them hv a happiness marriage forever. As in bible, we love him because he first love us... He make me know what is love... He make me fall in love once again... I also learned how to accept other ppl bad thing n not by looking for their good...

Those bad thing I let it go Tgt with 2011 n for those good things I bring forward to 2012... Another new year... 2012... Is a hard n tough year for me but it's also a good year with a good beginning for us... My pre wedding photo postpone to 2012(n also a time for me to really hv a diet plan... Hehe...) start to look for a house at kt n kl... The deposit had ready for it n now hardworking to save for future renovation.. But hopefully everything done in 2012 so that, v can hv our big event at our own house... The another plan is dear was planning to get 7 seats car before v back to malaysia... Hope our dreams come true n everything go smoothly.. The bird nest house is done until half n I think when I back to kt this cny it's should be done...

Last but not least, Thanks dear for fulfill everything eventot is tough for us... Thanks for fulfill all my needs... Thanks for putting me at 1st... Thanks for accepting my fren n I know u go well with them.. Thanks for all the changes u make for us... Thanks for caring from the day I step in Sg... Thanks for work out Tgt with me for our future.. Thanks for the way u pamper me... Thanks for ur warm hug every day n night.. Thanks for ur support... Wish v will hv better year in 2012.. Wish our dreams come true... Wish v hv a prospects year ahead in coming year.. Goodbye 2011, welcome 2012... Start everyday with a new hope leave bad memories behind and have faith for a better tomorrow. GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME!


~love~
Catherine

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