Saturday, July 17, 2010 | 1:26 AM | 0 Moments
Another sleepless night.feel so weird that i also will hv sleepless night.
hv a tears drop period at the corner of the room so that others wont see.
but still hv to wake up top wash my face just because i cant let my eyes bengkak.
tomolo hv a interview, received call at the night while chatting with juliana at bukit batok mcd. quite long didnt meet her. i think after v finish our degree course in segi.
ok, back to the topic.
still awake at this time also didnt bring me any benefits also coz my eyes still will bengkak like panda. whatever la, i still couldnt sleep at this moment.
dunno whether i make a right decision to leave my comfort zone and came to stranger zone that no 1 can understand my feeling besides juliana unless u go thru and experience like us. sometimes u not yet go thru 1 thing then dun make decision and say that easy like u had been go thru n times. u know u r so bodoh sombong! dun too angkuh! u tot u earn alot ar?!!!
finished that case.
another case that make me awake at this moment is i suddenly miss my warm family that before this i always find reason so that they let me drive my own to interview but now i so hope that they will beside me to go thru everything. fetch me to interview and company me until the interview end.
at 1st, i always tot that distance will make a relationship gap bigger but now i found out that eventhought there is no distance between u and him but will lack of freedom. even u unhappy u hv to keep in ur heart until everyone is getting to the bed then u just can wake up in the mid night for blogging.
2nd anniversary bring nth to us. or should say it is a meaningful day for me but not him. other couple celebrate every festival tgt but v celebrate with nth. erm... should say he celebrate with his dota and i celebrate with mrt map.
my heartbroken once again! get empty promised always. so happy to wait the days come but its gone by nth.
dun understand y they just will realise when there are bigger problem occur?!! y dun they just avoid from that?!! get a very meaningful present is been told by him that he will let me go once i found a better 1. better than him and he told that he very open-minded. okie...i get what u mean. now regret also too late dy so i hv to go on with the decision that i had make.
dun worry, i will find my way out. i dun believe that i cant make it by my own. as Tay told me im a good girl and bravo girl so i can do it without any help. once i get a better job i will find my own accomodation. dun worry, i will give back ur life. the life that u said it is a normal life in Sg that i couldnt accept it. i know even i here u still can do smth i dun like if u wan. i know it, u told me before and i wont say anything or angry on u. u happy with ur life so i also will a life that belongs to me.
a everyday comfort food is a call to mummy and daddy to let them know their daughter is save and everything is alright at here. once i earn alot of money i will go back to u all. to our better life. wait me... i miss u all very much but i cannot give up at this moment.
Night.... muackzzz.....
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