alot of feeling! alot of thing that i feel wanna to tell but i dunno y i cant! i dunno where can i go to even my best friend i also feel they wont understand even i told them! but i know if i din tell ppl then i will go crazy. everything become so different. everything change so fast until i cant catch it up. maybe i too lazy for it, maybe i too stupid for it, maybe i too noob i dunno. until today i dy skip 3 weeks of classes that i suppose not to skip. the submission date for my coursework is around the corner and i din even start at all even read the case study or should say even read the question. i no more motivation to further my study but... :x and now no1 can give that motivation to me. coz im useless person that no friend, no bf, no sister, no younger bro and i hv no one. i starting to push myself far away from the world. i rather to choose to be in the room alone and even skip few meals a day. i feel i no more hope in the world. i wasting money and time live in this world. everytime go to class i feel myself so weird. feel like ppl look at me all the time. maybe alone and nth to do so will be more sensitive but i still like ppl staring at me. i know i think too much. ok, i should stop thinking nonsense even that is my real feeling. few days ago going back kt for my close friend wedding. she make me think about alot of sweet memory that v hv been tgt and now she become a wife. in my head thinking will this change our relationship? will it make us distance? can i still talk with her when im sad or when i need someone to talk. i know is hard eventhought i know her husband wont mind. but she hv her own family to take care. on the wedding party, i met alot of old friends that i can say that i din met them for almost 5 years plus. everything is change. they had change alot even some still not but just few la. they become so mature. izzit ppl will change when they get into working life?! everyone with their partners coz my fren invite our old classmates and tgt with partners but i go alone. maybe i mind what ppl will say to me, what ppl will comment on it, so i choose to go alone. but in the end, i still cant stand of it coz they still asking where is my partner? and some even more worst asking about ex... maybe long time din meet they also dunno what really happen. after all that i more sure that i will keep staying alone in the room with my laptop and no talking, no singing, no phone call. maybe no1 will believe. yet, i still choose not to tell that feeling or problem to anyone. coz im useless and no hope.
alot of feeling! alot of thing that i feel wanna to tell but i dunno y i cant! i dunno where can i go to even my best friend i also feel they wont understand even i told them! but i know if i din tell ppl then i will go crazy. everything become so different. everything change so fast until i cant catch it up. maybe i too lazy for it, maybe i too stupid for it, maybe i too noob i dunno. until today i dy skip 3 weeks of classes that i suppose not to skip. the submission date for my coursework is around the corner and i din even start at all even read the case study or should say even read the question. i no more motivation to further my study but... :x and now no1 can give that motivation to me. coz im useless person that no friend, no bf, no sister, no younger bro and i hv no one. i starting to push myself far away from the world. i rather to choose to be in the room alone and even skip few meals a day. i feel i no more hope in the world. i wasting money and time live in this world. everytime go to class i feel myself so weird. feel like ppl look at me all the time. maybe alone and nth to do so will be more sensitive but i still like ppl staring at me. i know i think too much. ok, i should stop thinking nonsense even that is my real feeling. few days ago going back kt for my close friend wedding. she make me think about alot of sweet memory that v hv been tgt and now she become a wife. in my head thinking will this change our relationship? will it make us distance? can i still talk with her when im sad or when i need someone to talk. i know is hard eventhought i know her husband wont mind. but she hv her own family to take care. on the wedding party, i met alot of old friends that i can say that i din met them for almost 5 years plus. everything is change. they had change alot even some still not but just few la. they become so mature. izzit ppl will change when they get into working life?! everyone with their partners coz my fren invite our old classmates and tgt with partners but i go alone. maybe i mind what ppl will say to me, what ppl will comment on it, so i choose to go alone. but in the end, i still cant stand of it coz they still asking where is my partner? and some even more worst asking about ex... maybe long time din meet they also dunno what really happen. after all that i more sure that i will keep staying alone in the room with my laptop and no talking, no singing, no phone call. maybe no1 will believe. yet, i still choose not to tell that feeling or problem to anyone. coz im useless and no hope.
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