Wednesday, February 25, 2009 | 5:54 PM | 0 Moments
quite long time never update my blog. for few months dunno what to write act. maybe the feel of sharing the feeling is gone or just dun feel wanna to share or just wanna to keep my update information from others. when i know that i hv to face everything by myself, just hv to be strong for better tomolo but there will hv better tomolo appear? i also finding for the answer.hope for better tomolo. is a hope but like what mr vicky said i know that i no hope anymore.
today quite a bad day for me. or should i say the day went not smoothly? i have 2 exam in 1 day wtf! its make me crazy of worry about this 2 paper! spend few days for it but cant remember even 1 single little thing about that paper. maybe i will stuck on this paper until i die? act dun dare to tell anyone that i dy try my best! not dare to tell anyone that i really try hard for it. but maybe this called fate! i hv to face it any how. like others said before u wont feel the feel until 1 day u face the same problem like others do. maybe and now i feel the fear! i hv to fear for 2 months or maybe more?! OMG, i dun even dare to think it.
i get struggle! struggle whether i need to continue with u or i need to end it! i dunno and do not hv any answer for it! i try very hard for it but u since like wont understand my feeling or even wanna to understand what i feel act. and no one understand it! try to share with ppl? no coz i know just i know that feel! dun ask me what feel coz hard to describe coz u not in my position. love hv to scarify but i dunno what scarify that i need to take. can i take it easy? no! maybe is time for me to solve every problem by myself and i hv to face it! but how to solve? if i just let it be will it be better? ok, i think i should stop it! is too many question that i know no answer for it! maybe i hv to discover it on my own!